i keep bleeding.

i am in that half way spot between sad and mad. where you could cry because you are so frustrated.
i dont know what to say tonight other than i didnt ask for this.

i dont want to have to split up time with apple between him and i. but here i am doing it.

i dont want to lose friends. but here i am doing it.

i am left here to deal with our old life.
while he moves on to his new one that he already had in place for the last eight months.

i cried today it caught me off gaurd because i had done so well the last few days.
it hurts to be alone. it hurts to be doing all this.