big firsts for both of us

today was huge at our house. apple took her first step, and you can see her first tooth. my parents were here... my mum was in the room with us, and it was amazing to share it with her.
i was so happy, and still am so happy that i was here with her to see it.
one big day for apple!!!!!
the big news for me is still no contact. this is the longest that we have gone in seven years without talking in some way or another.
he is now asking about apple. has been since late yesterday. but only by txt, no phone calls etc.
i am doing better, so much better.
each day i feel better.
i am excited for the things to come, and excited about the new options in my life.
this weekend is apples first birthday, her party is saturday and we will be surrounded by all of the special people in our lives... it will be great. a month ago, i thought of cancelling the party, its not something that i thought i could handle. and now? its full steam ahead.